Motivations

So I've become a bit more interested lately in losing weight. I've always been on the bigger side for my whole life, except for one year in 8th grade where I was "thin". However my weight has been a hangup for me for awhile and it's been holding me back. Not in a I HAZ TO BE 98 POUNDZ OR ELSE I WON'T BE WHOLE PERSONS. But I certainly do have my motivations. And here I shall share them. They're long term goals but I'd like to be happy with my appearance by my 21st birthday that way I can go out and have fun without being obsessed with my appearance.

But these are what I want from losing weight:

1.To wear at least a medium.
I have become rather more fashion conscious lately. But the only problem with that is the fact that right now I am on the verge between a large and an extra large. This makes shopping at stores that cater to fashion for people in their young twenties (Forever21, Charlotte Russe, etc) rather more difficult.
If I wore a medium this would make things so much easier. Because pretty much if you wear a medium you can almost always find a size in a store that works for you. Whatever that might mean.
2.To be able to sit in a chair without worrying
Whenever I'm sitting anywhere I'm really self conscious. Either I'll wear sweatshirts to cover up my poochy belly, sit with a pillow on my stomach, sit with my arms crossed, etc.
3.Own a swimsuit and enjoy swimming again
I at this point don't even own a swimsuit anymore. At almost 200 pounds that's just to much for me. If I was leaner and more healthy I would no longer feel so bad about making people look at me in this condition.
4.Have a healthy BMI
Why thank you Calorie Count for being so kind and saying that my BMI is only overweight rather than the obese that everyone else says. How kind. But really I'd love for my BMI to not make me feel so bad whenever I see it
5.To be more comfortable with boys
Sure there are boys out there who are okay with dating someone as large as me. Or who prefer dating girls like me. BUT I don't want to date someone who's not dating me for me. And if I can't appreciate myself at this size, how can anyone else?
So I feel like with confidence I'll be more comfortable with flirting and realizing that boys can like me.
To tell you the truth in past cases when boys have (VERY rare but still) shown interest in me I've always been so suspicious and/or confused that that certainly has not helped at all.
6.To have thighs that don't rub together
My goal is for my thighs to not touch when I walk. I don't care if they are half a millimeter apart, it'll be enough. I certainly most definitely don't want thighs that are an inch or more apart though. Just want to put that out there so you don't worry about me.
7. No More Double Chin
So this is admittedly not a completely new phenomenom but I would like to be able to take almost any picture from almost any angle and not have a double chin sneak in. It's becoming an epidemic that is effecting almost every picture of me in existence. No more denial, I am SURE I have one in everyday life and that it doens't just sneak into existence when the camera flashes.
8. No more fat friend status
My friends are all angelic, statuesque, and beautiful my friend looking. And I always look like an awful subhuman being when I'm with them. If I was thinner I might actually look like I'm the same species as them. That'd be great